God often tells me, a worrier and a doubter, not to put Him in a box. When I read my worries logged on my journal (worries that mostly never happened), I really wish I never wasted my time thinking about them. This makes me go before the Lord with a humble, puppy-like face for I have failed the test again. Life is never about how I can handle things, because God is really the one in control of my life.
When I sin, I get so disappointed with myself that I even ask God if He is at work in my life at all. Again, this is a test - of patience. It is God's desire that I may one day be fully healed. I just have to draw closer to Him to avoid sin.
I do not have any possessions. I have given them all to my family. The fruits of my labor, I can no longer enjoy. This sometimes makes me sad. This is yet another test. But it is encouraging to hear God's words: Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth...For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also (Mt 6:19-21). I have no earthly treasures, but God tells me that I have treasures in heaven - an intimate relationship with Him, love of brethren, and moral uprightness. And though I am not rich, there is so much more to give. I can give my best at work, and all my skills to the Lord. I give my possessions to my family so that they may see - that God's love is sufficient in life, that He will take care of all our needs because He is a generous God, and that the Lord is at work in our lives. This is all in the hope that they may experience conversion as I did. May I always labor for heavenly things.
Sometimes, God becomes so silent when I pray. Yet the blessings I receive cannot go unnoticed. So for that, I know God is with me. And though God's silence is yet another test, may I focus on Him alone. Pleasing God, and experiencing His presence is sufficient for the day till He calls me home. May I be the daughter He created me to be - exhibiting strength in adversity, and joy in difficulty. May I pass the tests that come my way, trusting that God knows best.
When I sin, I get so disappointed with myself that I even ask God if He is at work in my life at all. Again, this is a test - of patience. It is God's desire that I may one day be fully healed. I just have to draw closer to Him to avoid sin.
I do not have any possessions. I have given them all to my family. The fruits of my labor, I can no longer enjoy. This sometimes makes me sad. This is yet another test. But it is encouraging to hear God's words: Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth...For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also (Mt 6:19-21). I have no earthly treasures, but God tells me that I have treasures in heaven - an intimate relationship with Him, love of brethren, and moral uprightness. And though I am not rich, there is so much more to give. I can give my best at work, and all my skills to the Lord. I give my possessions to my family so that they may see - that God's love is sufficient in life, that He will take care of all our needs because He is a generous God, and that the Lord is at work in our lives. This is all in the hope that they may experience conversion as I did. May I always labor for heavenly things.
Sometimes, God becomes so silent when I pray. Yet the blessings I receive cannot go unnoticed. So for that, I know God is with me. And though God's silence is yet another test, may I focus on Him alone. Pleasing God, and experiencing His presence is sufficient for the day till He calls me home. May I be the daughter He created me to be - exhibiting strength in adversity, and joy in difficulty. May I pass the tests that come my way, trusting that God knows best.
